It was a scary feeling, standing there staring up into the night sky. It's always an amazing sight for someone who grew up in the light polluted city of Los Angeles, to see the abundance of stars that are riddled through the sky. It's as if someone took all the diamonds in the world and threw them into the atmosphere.
So standing there, my neck cranked so far back, as if I was hit with an uppercut, gazing into the Arizona sky is when I felt a feeling I never felt before. Now granted, I've seen the amazing night sky that is untouched by city lights before, but never have I felt so small looking at them. At the same time though, it was as if I was standing on the world's end, one step away from jumping into outer space. I felt like I could just jump and traverse galaxies. Fly and become an explorer of the stars. Life felt so small. It felt like nothing else mattered. I could see myself searching the unknowns of space. I felt like time had no meaning, just the amazing wonder and glory of the masterpiece that God created. Then suddenly I see the stars pulling away and space no longer was a footstep away. Back on solid ground, neck getting sore and someone calling me to help with something. My moment, in what I like to think was outside of time, was now that, a moment.
This past weekend a friend and former co-worker of mine passed away. It's had me thinking about life and how short it really is. How we are so consumed by each moment that we are living, and thinking that we need this new gizmo or that we should start saving up for this car, that are lives pass us by and they just become, moments. What moments are worth remembering? I ask myself this. All the time I am questioning whether or not my life is being lived as if it had any meaning. I wonder what the point of it all is, or how do I get my life to make sense? But I'm starting to realize that we waste these moments, asking these questions. Make your moments worth something. Be remembered as someone who lived their life and not asked it into oblivion.
We are all on a journey through life, but what is the goal exactly? Is it the something you're out to attain, or is it the growth of your character that happens as yo.u live to attain it?
It's hard not to get hung up on yourself in life, but when you stop thinking about yourself, you start to find that life is really big and there are moments to be made.
As always, I don't write this thinking I am giving advice to you. This is advice for me and I'm just sharing.
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